Lauren Gruwel

It is hard to sum up into words what my heart feels for Jesus. My love for him is deeply personal. He has shown me that he loves me individually and has been there in my darkest moments. 

At age 12, my oldest brother took his own life. I could never describe how painful it was to lose him. It shattered my entire family, and we have never been the same. After losing him, I was very confused. I didn’t understand why something so terrible had to happen. I cried to Heavenly Father, begging him for answers. It seemed that for years, the heavens were closed, and answers would not come. 

At age 16, I set out to read the Book of Mormon completely on my own. I had been raised a member of the Church, but I really didn’t have my own experience with the Book of Mormon prior to this. It took me 9 months to read the entire book. I will never forget how much peace I felt in my life, and how much strength the words on the pages brought me. So many of the questions I had, were answered when I read the Book of Mormon. 

My favorite scripture in the Book of Mormon is found in

Mosiah 16:8 But there is a resurrection, therefore the grave hath no victory, and the sting of death is swallowed up in Christ”. This scripture, for obvious reasons, brought me so much peace to my broken heart.

Because of Christ, all things broken will be made new. Because of Christ, I will be able to see my brother again. I know that He lives and loves us more than we can comprehend. The Book of Mormon teaches me about who Christ is and helps me feel the peace that only Christ can bring.